Music ~ Creed ~ With Arms Wide Open

~*~*~15 October 2001~*~*~
~Continuation of Holiday~
 
Right where was I? That's right I was talking about the flight OK we arrived in Furteventura at approx. 12:30pm boy was it hot! We left london at 3 am in the morning so was dressed warmly sweltering in the airport was not the word then we had loads of hassle gettingour luggage! Finally arrived at our apart hotel at approx. 3pm! Unpacked got changed we were all sweltering! And went and explored for a while the complex was huge! We had to walk ½ a mile to the only restaurant we could eat at being ½ board not fun when little one here was kicking me! Anyway the complex had 5 swimming pools 3 of which were salt water yuck!! Mal hates salt water! The rest of the ay was spent in the apartment sleeping coz we were all knackered.

The rest of the fortnight was spent either walking around the little commercial centre or sat round by the smallest pool there which was fresh water and a little more built up than the others, due to the fact that the complex was right on top of the beach and it was a little windy at times if you sat round by any of the other poolsyou'd get blasted with sand although it was very fine sand and you couldn't really feel it you felt it in the evening when we went back to our room to change and shower for the evening.

Bradley was very very well behaved he loved all the time that he and mal got to spend together didn't want mummy just daddy all the time well except when he was tired bless. Only one person commented on e being pregnant and that was only because she had over heard me talking to Bradley about his little sister and saw Bradley giving my tummy a kiss. The pool was a little cold but fantastic for jumping into to cool down boy did our little princess go mad when I did this she'd wriggle and kick even more. Bradley loved the water and was forever in and out just like mummy and daddy. Food out there where do I begin!! It was awful most of the time it was shellfish which being pregnant I'm not allowed to eat or meat for example beef that was cooked rare again being pregnant I can't eat it so we survived on chips for a fortnight if I see another chip I'm gonna scream!

I really don't think mal understood how I was feeling out there seeing all these beautiful women in there tiny bikinis and me feeling terribly fat and bloated in mineeven though I'm not showing with this pregnancy as much as I was with Bradley at this stage which to be honest is worrying me a little I just felt so ugly and horrid it's hard to explain. Even asked mal if he would buy me membership to a gym for Xmas he just laughed at me! The other thing I found strange was that although I missed having a drink with everyone else I didn't miss it as much as I thought I would mal and the couple of couples we met out there were getting drunk in the evening and there was me stone cold sober I guess as well one of the things that I was thinking about was that one of us had to be sober for Bradley as he was sleeping in with us he would not sleep in his travel cot at all so he slept in my bed with me and between them Bradley and the baby I didn't get that much sleep!

We have decided what we are going to call our little princess as well we were sitting round by the pool throwing names back and forth to each other when mal suddenly said how about Georgina and I said yeah how about Georgie for short? wow I really like that name so our little princess is going to be called Georgina Elizabeth Rosina.The Elizabeth is after my mum and the Rosina is after Mal's mum

There is more to come including what happened at the hospital on the 5th October the day my world started to crumble and my birthday 7th October then hopefully I'll be a bit more up to date but again my back is really sore so going to leave it here for now

We love you Georgie stay strong for us princess 27 weeks.
Nicki

Georgie's 26 week Scan

~*~*~29 October 2001~*~*~
~5th October Onwards~

I've had some bad news all is not well with my little princess :******(( I had to go to the hospital coz one she is on my cervix and 2 my mum has lupus and Hughes they think I may have it apparently they found something in my blood last time so now am being tested for it plus some other blood clotting disorder! I am so scared it's unreal! they measured me while I was there fundus height should have been at least 24 cm but was measuring at 21 cm so was sent fro another scan my princess is 4 weeks behind in her growth her abdominal circumference is not growing like it should be which is an indication of problems I am so scared for her right now have to go back to the hospital in 2 weeks time for follow up re the lupus and blood disorder and have scans every 4 weeks for now depending on how she grows may have to have them every week and may be admitted!!! I am worried sick for my little girl I went out today and brought her first pink outfit kinda strange doing it but it's my way of willing her on Please keep my little girl in your prayers and thoughts I need them right now pray she grows I'm gonna go now before I cry any harder than I am.

I really don't know what is happening with our little Princess Georgie or with myself I am so scared for her now it's untrue I just hope and pray that the scan on the 2nd November has good news and she has caught up with some of her growth.

My Birthday went in a bit of a blur really due to having the hospital appointment on the Friday my birthday was on the Sunday Mal brought me a card from himself and from Bradley but that was about it spent the day taking it easy apart from cooking a lovely roast dinner ((YUMMY))

Went back to the hospital to get the blood test results and they were not processed properly typical or what! So have had to have them all done again! I feel like a pin cushion right now! Hopefully they will have the results when I go back to the hospital on 2nd November. One good thing I guess is that I will be seeing our little girl again on a scan it's so lovely to see her but I just wish it wasn't like this under these circumstances. 2nd November is my baby brother Peter's birth and Angel day he died when he was an hour old I'm sure that Peter will be with us watching his little niece willing her on and we won't be given any more bad news about Georgie PLEASE!!! My mum is totally blaming herself for al of this and it's gonna be so hard for her on Friday as well especially if we have bad news I don't know if she could handle it to be honest.

Had a lovely Aromatherapy massage today heaven I have a nasty head cold coming as well not fair!! Anyway I am gonna go before this gets so long who ever is reading it gets bored! Thanks for reading this far and please keep your fingers crossed that we get given good news on Friday (((HUGS))))
 

Please Stay strong for mummy, daddy and Bradley Georgie we love you so much 28 weeks today Xx
Nicki

Georgies 28 Week Scan

The rest of Georgie's pregnancy dirary will be made up from e-mails and postings to friends I was lucky enough to meet during my pregnancy.

Hi Dawn

Sorry I didn't mail you on Friday with the news about Georgie But unfortuntaly I was addmitted to hospital with a severe Ashma attack! I have never been so scard i all my life! I'll tell you a little more about that after i update you on Georgie but the Ashma all ties in a little as well if this makes sense i'm sorry if this is going to be a little long. OK where do i start? I had the scan and all seemed to be well with her growth her growth is conssitstant with the last scan but she is very very small for dates etc had a problem getting the blood going through the cord reading but they believe this is due to the ashma as i was very very wheezzy and it looks like at that time she was not getting enough oxygen through the cord even with me coughing my gutz up she was not moving at all! (her heart was beating away though) after i had the scan I saw the dr in anti natal who had the results of the blood tests and although i have no antibodies at the monemt I am RH- which is scarey one of the blood clotting agents in my blood has rissen :-( which may lead to a blood clot in the cord or problems in delievering her :-( I have also been given a negitive result fot thhe Lupus SLE but have been told this could be a fulse negitive :-( Unfortunalty i started to have the ashma attack just as they were telling me what is going to be happening form now on and was rushed into delievery to be put on a nebulisa and then taken down to A+E because the nebulisa didn;t do anything! Was addmitted because my peak flow was dagerously low and basically anything could have happened to me or Georgie was on oxygen all night long and that seemed to controll it more now have 2 different inhallers that i have to take every 4 hours and anit-biotics because what shtareted all this was a chest infection! also on steriods for a few weeks as well to get me over the worst and have to have a nebulisa at home just in case this happens and i am on my own (God forbid) Not allowed to do very much at the moment have mal at home for a few days and then my mum is coming over to help me out some more right now I feell totally rotton!" and just want to sleep all the time They have now put me on fortnightly scans instead of monthly scans as well as seeing the Dr's at the hospital instead of my community midwife monthly i have to go to the hospital fortnightly as they want to keep an eye on the blood clotting thing as well There is prob something i am forgetting
but right now I am so tired I just need to sleep will keep you as updated as I can if you want me to?

~*~*~On: 17/10/01 17:17:51~*~*~
Subject: midwife app quick update

Midwife appoinment was ok she can't really tell me anything as she thinks the hospital want to tke over my care instead of me seeing her (which is good coz i don't actually like her) But one good thing to report!! my fundus height has grown by 2cm so am mesuring now for 23 weeks even though i am 27/26?? i don't even know lol

so my baby girl has not stopped growing all together which is a good thing! So it's still all a matter of wait and see it's doing my head in i am so scared!!! And they don't have any of my blood tests in yet agggggghhhhh hopefully they will have them in by friday when i go to see the Dr's at the hospital! so hopefully will have some more news then fingers crossed!!
 

Love as always
Nicki and the Gang!

~*~*~ On: 24/10/01 20:19:30~*~*~
Subject: I want.....

.........To have a decent nights sleep with out having to get up every 2hours or so to go to the loo
.....To cough with out wetting myself!
.....To sneze with out weting myself!
..... To not be in pain with my back!
.....To have other people not call me a liar when i say i am 27 weeks pg!!!! (I am hardley showing!! )
 

I'm sure there are a few others but my brain is so dead through sheer exasuston i can't think straight!
 

Love as always
Nicki and the Gang!
X
(((HUGS)))

~*~*~A post that was made on my behalf from a friend~*~*~

 Nikki hasn't been very well - she has had a cold (I had it too, which could also be why I was feeling so grumpy!) and was admitted overnight because she was very poorly. Georgie is still small but they think it could be connected to allergies, rather than a problem - she is seeing the consultant this week I think. They have found something else in her blood but still can't tell her what! I am due to meet up with her again soon so will let her know that you are asking after her!

~*~*~ Subject: Update long sorry~*~*~
Hi all.

Quick update on little Georgie! it's very long winded though so i will try and give the shortened verson!

 Probs with bloood first i guess after being mucked around by the hospital for over 6 weeks had enough and demanded to see the consultant (who incedently turned out to be a really nice bloke) the blood tests they did should NOT have been done in Pg!!! Apparently the blood clotting agents in your blood rises anyway during PG but i am still high risk for a clot anywhere in my body although this agent has risen like it should it has risen higher than it should if this makes sense? so they want ot keep an closer eye on things! And the tests all have to be re-done 6-12 weeks after georgie arrives :-( i feel like a blinking pin chusion!

Probs with the cord! due to haveing to have these growth scans and the blood clotting stuff they wanted to keep an even closer eye on the cord 2 weeks ago at a scan we couldn't get an accurate reading on the cord the woman tried for 40 mins to get it and couldn't so had to go back last week and have it redone and guess what little miss Georgie was very well behaved and we got a perfect reading this time! it's showng as having no problems at the moment! Thank god! Also at the last scan something they didn't tell me was they were a little worried about the amount of fluid around her notbeing enough but this seems to have corected itself now

Growth Georgina is still 4 weeks behind in her growth :-( although she is small she is still growing along the curve she has picked out nicely if this makes any sense? and the consultant dosen't seem to think it's to do with the food allegies as the dietitan though he seems to think i just in his words not mine "grow small Babies"!! (bradley was 6lb 7oz) I'm looking more and more pg now as well Mal makes me laugh every week he comes home pats my bump and says wow you've got bigger LMAO yeah hun it's not gonna get smaller untill i have the baby fingers crossed! that it dose go if any of this is making sense or am i just rambling?? as usual? have another Growth scan on friday get to see little miss again :-) this will b my 10th!! scan! then booked in for another growth scan on the 19th December :-) back to the hospital on the 28th to discuss the section and to be given the date on wich it will be done the consultant who's name i can't remember (no it's not Mr Ford Jennie he's not doing the ob clinic anymore he's moved over to gyne) said that it will be between 7th and 14th Jan so offically to my due date i have 7+5 to go but more like 5-6weeks left WHOOOO can' wait to hold my little girl!

Anyway thanks for getting as far as this if you did

 Love as always

Nicki and the Gang!

Georgina's 29 week Scan

~*~*~ On: 08/12/01 10:08:51~*~*~
Subject: Another Update! And News on Bradley

I saw the consultant Yesterday I have another growth scan next week on friday and depending on the results of that if she hasn't grown anymore or is still below the centile thaen they are going to deliver her Possibly on Friday she will be approx 5 weeks early I asked him a striagt question and he gave me a straight answer what is the likely hood of her not growing and having to be delivered b4 xmas? Very very likely! so it looks as though i will be holding my little girl some time after friday Unless she has shown significant changes in her growth i.e she has caught up loads which I don't think she has then she will be delivered as they seem to think the growth problem is caused by my placenta failing!! which as you know can become life threating for Georgie He really said he didn't hold out much hope of me going further than 35 weeks with the pg! Boy am i worried!! A bad day started off bad if this makes sense? Bradley fell down 5 stairs as i was leaving to go to my anti natal appointment b4 i evn got to the hospital! eneded up taking him to xcasulty and running between the buildings!! he has very badley bruised his legs from the fall so bad in fact he cannot bear weight on his right leg and i have been instructed to keep him off his legs full stop!! have to take him back to the hospital on monday when i also have an appointment as well but this is for a massarge (lovely a little bit of pampering!) and then have to go back to the hospital on tues and have another CTG done of Georgies heartbeat and movemnts Then scan on Fri and seeing consultant on Fri as well and possibly having Georgie on Friday!!! Again i am very very worried as she will more than likely end up in specal care for a few days or even weeks because she is so small (3lb at the last scan) but at least she has a good chance because i am over 32 weeks and they wouldn't deliver her for the sake of it if this makes sense? So Jennie it don't look like we will be sharing an room or whatever LOL

 Will keep ppl as updated as I can

Love as always
Nicki and the Gang!

~*~*~On: 12/12/01 23:07:03~*~*~
Subject: Nikki and Georgie  Hello!!

Nikki has asked me to post on her behalf to update you on her pg! I can't remember what her last one said, but I think she mentioned that she had hospital appointments this week and that a decision was going to be made on Friday! WELL!!!!

<p> On Monday night she woke up in a puddle which she thought was rather strange! At her appointment on Tuesday they discovered that her amniotic sac had sprung a leak and admitted her straight away! (This by the way was especially annoying as we were supposed to be 'doing lunch' and shopping today!!!!). Anyway! They have scanned her today and the good news is that Georgie has grown by 12oz since the last scan. The bad news is that they are going to keep her in until next Tuesday at the earliest to keep an eye on her and to ensure that she doesn't develop any nasty infections etc. She is on steroids and anti biotics to help keep things ticking over nicely so fingers crossed all will be well.

However! When I saw her today after my scan (see next posting - this is about Nikki!), she said that she has been feeling lower back pains etc which feel very much like the labour pains she had with Brad. When I left her at 11:30 she was waiting to have a scan to determine whether or not they were going to get Georgie out today or not. She rang me at 8pm giving me the update, but said that she had a feeling that she wasn't going to be lasting much longer without going into labour on her own. If she does she will be given an emergency c-sect becuase of her back problems (she was having an elective anyway) and both will be cared for accordingly (and she will ring me or get someone to send me an e-mail!). As soon as I know more I will let you know, but I am sure that you are all wishing her the best of luck too!
 Regs

~*~*~On: 14/12/01 22:52:43~*~*~
Subject: Nikki and Georgie again

I went to see Nikki today. They are still keeping her in until Tuesday and then will hopefully let her go home (as long as she hasn't gone into labour!).

She is looking most attractive with some lovely support tights (which she is going to hate me for telling you about!). But other than that and terminal boredom she seems to be doing OK.

I am still on the 'get Nikki fat' trail and left her with a very large bar of toblerone in order to help my campaign along!

The consultants have said that they want her to try and keep Georgie in womb as long as possible, but at least until 37 weeks. Until then they will constantly monitor her for infection etc, so even if she comes out she will still have to go to the hospital on a monotonously regular basis. She has very little fluid left in her amniotic sac so there is still a possibility that Georgie will end up in neo-natal because she will be too dry. It's also causing Nikki problems because every time Georgie moves she is obviously causing a certain amount of frition against the wall of the womb. although it is still early days it is looking more hopeful than it was on Tuesday and vastly better than it was the week before!

 I will continue passing on your good wishes to her, but I am sure that if she comes out next Tuesday she will be on line to thank you herself!
 

Take care
Regards

~*~*~On: 18/12/01 21:00:49~*~*~
Subject: I'm Home!!

I am home now with Georgie still inside my tummy! But without any amniotic fluid! so everytime she moves it is very very painful! The consultant wants me to get to 37 weeks as Georgie stands a much better chance in this big wide world of ours if we can get that far fingers crossed We have booked the c-section for 31st December 2001!!(so unless any of you lot bet me to it and have baby in the next 13 days Georgina will be the Next Jan 2001 club babay to arrive!) what a great new years i'm going to have :-) my new baby will be here!!!! Have lots of appointments in the next 2 weeks I cannot believe that this time in 2 weeks my daughter will be here no matter what!!! There is still a very good chance that i could go into labou on my own at anytime due to the lack of fluid or infection (one of the reasons i have to go to the hospital ever 2 days and have blood taken) but so far Georgina is doing well in there and all the indications are that she will arrive new years eve! but we will just have to wait and see what develops over the next few days/weeks The only reason they let me come home Yesterday wasn't supposed to come home till today is coz Mal is at home and will be at home untill the 7th January :-))) I'm not allowed to be on my own at all Just in case something happens! Still feeling very scared but not as scared as i have been over the last few weeks another plus sign is that at the last scan Georgie had grown by 12oz! so she now weighs approx 3lb 130z 'm gonna go now as i am feeling ery tired and drained and need to rest Hope everyone is well etc LOVE YOU LOTS Thank you for all the prays ect it really means a lot

I'm sure that it's all my net friends willing her and me on that have got us this far!
Love ya lots and lots take care will post as soon as i can with any updates etc!  

Hope every one else is doing well?
 

Love as always
Nicki and the Gang!

~*~*~On: 29/12/01 22:29:22~*~*~
Subject: OMG!!!!

 Oh My God!!! it's hitting home now that in less than 36 hours time my baby girl will be here!!!! HELP!!!!!

A little bit of an update Went for a trace on her heartbeat and movements on thursday and it looked like at one point they were going to take me in and deliver her because her heart rate sored to 184!!! but luckly it settled right back down to 140 after about 10 mins and thankfully stayed there! Everything is set up for monday 31st December i have to b at the hospital for 8am! and from what the midwife was saying i should be in thearter by 9am holding my daughter by 9:30am!! It's just hit me in less than 36 hours i am going to be a mummy again and bring t! his beauitful little girl in to this world I am scared but excited at the same time! OMG is all i can say!!!

I will post as soon as I can after wards but won't be for a few days as I will be in hospital for at least 3 days coz of having the section Hope every one else is well? and that just think every one the end is in sight!! I mean it's still dec and 4 of the Jan club babies have been born already! (not including Georgie as she's not here YET!!)

 sorry this is a bit muddled and rambled but i'm in total shock now!! One last thing GOOD LUCK to everyone!!!!

Love as always
Nicki and the Gang!
((((((HUGS)))))))

On: 31/12/01 23:22:11 Subject: : : t: : AAAHHHHHH - GOO!!!!! !!!!

 Dear All!
 Just thought I'd put a little posting to let you know about the message I have on my answerphone from Nicki's other half, Malcolm! Georgie was born at 6:30 (I'm assuming this evening) weighing 4lbs 2oz - HOW TINY!!! AAA Regs

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